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Truths

3/10/2013

Truths:

Yes, I believe that music is what saved me
Yes, I love Demi Lovato
Yes, I have a stay strong tattoo that I am EXTREMELY proud of
Yes, I look to Demi as an inspiration when I’m feeling like there’s no way out
Yes, I am tatted up like Lil Wayne
Yes, I have a skin condition called psoriasis
Yes, sometimes it makes me very self concious
Yes, I have many piercings
Yes, I am bisexual
Yes, I can be one of the most ANNOYING people on the face of the earth
Yes, I tweet to much
Yes, I am obsessed with Harry Styles, Ed Sheeran, Spongebob, etc.
Yes, I’ve been broken in the past but am no longer
Yes, I have suffered from an eating disorder
Yes, sometimes I’ll look in the mirror and hate what I see
Yes, I’m on the “thicker” side
Yes, I have suffered from self harm and have attempted suicide multiple times
Yes, I am extremely proud to share my stories with others
Yes, I believe the only way to overcome your past is with positivity
Yes, I will ALWAYS stand up for what’s right.. even if it means I am standing alone
Yes, sometimes I get very insecure
Yes, sometimes I have moments of vulnerability
Yes, I am FAR from perfect

But if there’s one thing I tell everyone it’s that “we are all different for a PURPOSE and it’s the combination of our strengths and our flaws that makes us ALL beautiful”

- yours truly

But none of this means I am weak… just because I cry or get hurt by others words doesn’t mean I will think of giving up ever again…

I will never allow ANYONE to hurt me again…

because we are all beautiful…

thank you.

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Thoughts On My Mind

8/20/2012

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Have you ever had that moment in your life where you don't know what will happen next? A moment when you realize that tomorrow may really be the start of a new day. That's what I am experiencing. I don't know if I should be extremely excited or scared (poop)less.

Everything happens for a reason. People come in and out of your life, as do experiences. Everything that is meant to be will be and I've always had faith in that. But how do you act when you finally feel like everything that's meant to be is finally coming full circle? Life has handed me some pretty interesting cards and I've taken them and played the game, dealing with the obstacles and learning from every experience.

What if I have finally gained everything I've needed to learn in order to succeed? Is this truly the start of a new? All I know is that I go on into the future with the confidence I need to conquer whatever it is I am yet to face. I'm ready. Game on.

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Life

8/19/2012

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It's interesting how crazy one's life can get. It's also interesting how one's life can change in the blink of an eye... how one can work so hard at something for so long and then the opportunity they always dreamed of can come to the doorstep. Life is a tricky thing, a complicated thing that is ever changing. One day here, one day there. Most importantly, life is what you make it. Don't sit around at home wanting life to be more exciting and get better... MAKE IT MORE EXCITING! Go out and take in everything life has to offer.

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Scary Movies... Paranormal Activity

2/10/2012

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Okay. So for those who know me, you know, scary movies & I do NOT mix.

Well, needless to say.. my friends FORCED me to watch Paranormal Activity 3 and whoever made these movies... I do NOT like you. We are NOT friends. I do NOT like scary movies.

I mean .. who WANTS to be scared? Why can't people just always watch comedies or something that makes you smile and enjoy yourself... NOOOOO instead people want to watch stuff that makes them paranoid for like WEEKS.

Sleep has been terrible the past two nights.. Literally every noise has made me jump, has woken me up, has made me wanna scream... ugh! NEVER AGAIN!

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Dedicated to music ...

2/10/2012

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to me .. writing music is what i use to express every single
emotion i have … as well as share my experiences with everyone
around …

i hope that i can write songs that people can go .. oh my god
i didn’t think someone else felt that way … or that they aren’t
alone … that is my goal … if i at least touch the life of one person…
my goal will have been met …

i love music .. it has gotten me through many tough times as
well as the good times .. && it is something that i will always
have in my life && i will always carry with me …

music … thank you …

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My First Time in LA

2/6/2012

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SOOO! This past weekend I got to go to LA for the FIRST TIME EVER!

you seeeeeee.... I had a gig there with the wedding/events band I sing for called "The Sultans of Swing" and obviously I was ecstatic!

First off, let's talk plane ride... the flight there was 6 hours and the LONGEST SIX HOURS OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!! I tried to sleep as much as I could, but the bumpy ride did NOT make it any easier. Any way, if there was a way to teleport ... that would be the way to go!

Anywhooo.... so after getting there I went right to sleep that way I could wake up and enjoy Orange, California where we were staying.

After my nice sleep, I woke up and walked to the outdoor mall across from the hotel with my vocal bandmate J-Krak. When getting to the mall I noticed a mechanical bull. Now, you can understand my excitement seeing as I LOVE making a complete fool of myself in public! So, I rode the bull and left with cuts and bruises all over my body.... haha

After actin' a fool and shopping, it was time to go back to the hotel and get ready for the gig.. After primping and showering... make that... showering.. then primping.... the band headed to Laguna Beach to the party venue.

The place we played at was called "Seven Degrees"... the reason it had this name was because everything IN the club was angled at seven degrees: the lights, the wall, even the doors... which I ran into a million times... but the club over all was STUNNING!

The sound was outstanding and the band really killed it! I had so so so much fun.. we even got asked to stay for an extra half hour... So obviously we were on FIRE!!!!! :P

Well, we got back to the hotel around 1:30am... and had to leave for the airport for 4am.. Sweet! So, I got an hour of sleep and then slept the ENTIRE FLIGHT HOME!

So, needless to say... such a short, but AWESOME trip!

oh and I came home just in time to watch the Pats lose. Cool ..
-_____-

hahaha...

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First Post!

2/1/2012

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I will be starting to blog about my different experiences : musically and personally.
Keep posted! :)